Well, it's been 6 weeks since we lost Reid. I am finding that weekends when dh is home and around and my other 2 children are around my spirits are so much better. I can laugh at times and even enjoy things. During the week when dh is at work and ds and dd are at school the days are so long... even when I keep busy with work, friends and other things. I find that my baby is on my mind all day long, I even relive the day I delivered him over and over. I don't want to forget him and I never will, I just feel like it consumes me sometimes. Mondays are always tough and I get the icky feeling starting Sundays when I anticipate everyone going back to work/school. I don't know why I keep reliving the whole thing in my head... is it because i am scared to forget things? Because maybe I want to make sure that I always remember every detail? I am finding that with time I am not crying as much but I am still in a lot of pain. Every week I find I am still counting the weeks as if I am still pg and sometimes I read my pgcy book on what should be happening that week. I long to hold him in my womb again or even in my arms again. I miss you Reid Oliver!!!