Long days (loss ment.)

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Joined: 09/18/08
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Long days (loss ment.)

Well, it's been 6 weeks since we lost Reid. I am finding that weekends when dh is home and around and my other 2 children are around my spirits are so much better. I can laugh at times and even enjoy things. During the week when dh is at work and ds and dd are at school the days are so long... even when I keep busy with work, friends and other things. I find that my baby is on my mind all day long, I even relive the day I delivered him over and over. I don't want to forget him and I never will, I just feel like it consumes me sometimes. Mondays are always tough and I get the icky feeling starting Sundays when I anticipate everyone going back to work/school. I don't know why I keep reliving the whole thing in my head... is it because i am scared to forget things? Because maybe I want to make sure that I always remember every detail? I am finding that with time I am not crying as much but I am still in a lot of pain. Every week I find I am still counting the weeks as if I am still pg and sometimes I read my pgcy book on what should be happening that week. I long to hold him in my womb again or even in my arms again. I miss you Reid Oliver!!!

Joined: 11/14/08
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I'm sorry that you are having difficult weeks! I lost my baby 2 months ago and as time passes it has been getting better. I hope that time will help you heal. :bigarmhug:

Joined: 03/20/07
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Hugs to you....

Joined: 01/25/02
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aw sweetheart, hugs!

Joined: 03/16/15
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I am sorry for your loss of little Reid.

I'm not sure what's causing your "head miles", but I remember them well -- I felt plagued by all of those thoughts and feelings.

I can only speak for myself, but I have never forgotten my angel babies. They are a part of me, and my love for them roars on. And it's been over 6 years now since we lost our first. But I would like to assure you that I no longer grieve our angels. That stopped a long time ago. Never forgotten, always loved, but the grief is gone.

Sharing my thoughts and feelings here helped me enormously to shift through my grief. So I'm glad you're here, eventhough I'm sorry that you're "one of us". Keep writing in; we all care and we're going to help you through this.

Bear hugs,
Nicole

Joined: 03/16/15
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sending you many hugs.