Lost my angel today(mc ment)

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alape052105's picture
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Lost my angel today(mc ment)

I just need to talk to others who have been where I am now. Some history. My husband and I were ttc for 16months since my dd birth. I took clomid and found out I was pg on December 14th. We were overjoyed to say the least. I felt completely different then I did my my dd. I thought it was weird but just figured that maybe it was a boy and that was why I felt different. My whole pregnancy I had this feeling that something just wasnt right. I started spotting light light pink on Monday got a little darker Thursday called the dr and they scheduled me for an ultrasound Friday morning. I think I knew. I had pretty much talked myself into the baby being gone, but it didnt really help when I looked at the screen and there was no baby just a sac. I feel so weird because I still feel pregnant. I scheduled a DNC for Tuesday morning, but I have a feeling I may miscarry naturally before then. Im just so confused. I have heard people talk about how big the baby measured when they lost it, but my baby wasnt even there. It had been there at my first ultrasound at 6w5d but today at 9w5d there was nothing. I couldnt think straight at the time so I didnt think to ask my dr where the baby went. I just feel so lost. I just needed to talk about it. If anyone has been where I am or can shed some light I would greatly appreciate it. PM me if you want Im just overwhelmed. I thought I was ok. One minute Ill be fine and the next Im bawling ahhhhhhhhhhh thanks for reading

HopefullySoon's picture
Joined: 01/31/08
Posts: 163

Oh girl I am so sorry to hear this. My heart just hurts for you.
When I got pregnant with my baby that I just lost, there were actually twins but the 2nd baby's heartbeat stopped at 8 weeks. I also wondered what happened to the baby, so when I asked they told me my body just absorbed everything.
I am so sorry. I know it is so overwhelming. I also have had losses after doing fertility treatments and that only seems to make it that much worse. Just take things a day at a time.

Joined: 03/16/15
Posts: 53852

I'm so sorry you have to go through this and that your TTC journey has been so unfair. Hugs to you.

troynicole's picture
Joined: 12/06/07
Posts: 151

:bighug: i'm so sorry...i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better, but just know in time that it will get better but you will never forget. just give yourself all the time you need to grieve and heal. we are all going through a loss and are here for you.

Nicole

Joined: 03/16/15
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I am so sorry.

Thinking about you.
Robin

Joined: 03/16/15
Posts: 53852

My deepest sympathies to you and your husband. I don't have an answer for you except to repeat what has already been said - I have heard the same about reabsorbtion.

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you found this board, it is a great support. I just wish you didn't need it. I wish none of us needed it.

:bighug:

shellyhudson's picture
Joined: 01/13/07
Posts: 814

I am so very sorry for your loss. The ladies here are truly amazing. I rely on them heavily. Please come here and vent, cry, rejoice(eventually you will have something to be happy about), or just anything that you might need to do. We all understand the devastation of losing a child. We all also know that no matter the time frame, it is the loss of a child and all of the love, hopes, and dreams that come along with it. I am sorry that you have a need for a board like this, but I am glad that you found this one. I wish you peace and strength.

Shelly

Joined: 03/16/15
Posts: 53852

I'm very sorry for your loss :bighug:

rubber_da_glove's picture
Joined: 12/31/07
Posts: 1527

That happend to me, there was nothing in the sack but there had been. I was told that after the baby died my body absorbed it. My baby died at 6.5 weeks but the scak carried on growing to 8 weeks and I had a natural m/c at 11 weeks. I knew something was wrong too, just like you did, not that it makes you feel better. I hope your ok and I'm very sorry for your loss!!! (((hug)))

putney1477's picture
Joined: 01/03/07
Posts: 42

I'm so sorry for your loss, there are no words I could say...wish there was.

HUGS

Heather