Today was my second confirmed loss (third if we count one BFP that didn't even make it to 5 weeks). I have also had one successful pg, with the use of clomid.
I made it to 6.5 weeks, or at least that's what we think based on our best estimations - my cycle is screwy and we were surprised to have gotten pg without clomid in the first place. I had increasing amounts of spotting & bloody mucous until finally this morning it was clear that I was definitely losing this one. I was a little tender & bloated for quite a while, but then suddenly it was as if I was having a really strong hour-long contraction, and it hurt SOOO bad I had to call my mom to take me in to the dr. Luckily my family doc is really close & had a cancellation so we went there instead of emerg (which would have been a longer wait anyway). She is trying to get me in at the hospital for an emerg u/s, but it may take a few days... she just wanted to make sure there was no ectopic pg or anything.
The pain went down to just cramps again, but then I felt something coming (kinda like if you were to lose your tampon). I ran to the bathroom but didn't quite make it & when I pulled down my underwear it fell out & into my pants. I think it was both the sac & placenta (different colours) and altogether was about the size of a plum or small mandarine orange. This was about an hour after seeing the doc.
So yeah, I'm a little shell-shocked. I haven't cried (although my inside doesn't exactly match my outside), but I just don't really know how to handle this. Does that sound totally crazy? I've been just walking around in a daze since. I wish DH was home already (he's still on his way).
I wish I hadn't seen it. Maybe if I made it to the toilet I wouldn't have realized what exactly that was. Does that sound really big for 6.5 weeks?!? Is it normal to pass it like this? I don't remember it happening like this last time, and I should have been farther along then than I was this time....
My doc is sending me in for a full work-up (appt in Dec). I suppose that's the "silver lining". She wants us to find out why I keep m/c'ing, and it may also shed some light on serious health issues that my full-term baby experienced right after birth. They think I might have some underlining blood problems, and/or hormonal issues (PCOS has already been suggested more than once, but that likely isn't the full story, AND I haven't yet had formal testing for it).
Thoughts/insight/opinions welcome. So are hugs. Sorry if I sound kinda mental right now, I guess I just am. Analyzing has always been one of my coping techniques, along with planning/organizing. I know I'll have more children (I have to believe it in order to stay sane right now), but why does it have to be so f@#$%^& difficult!?!?!