I noticed that this forum hasn't been used. I seem to fit here, so I thought I would start a thread and see if anyone else followed.
I just suffered my 5th missed pg on the 18th. I'm sitting here recovering from my d & c. I don't know what to do with myself. I have to get use to not being pg anymore.
A little background on me:
I have been married for 14 yrs. I have a dd who is 11 yo. I had no problems with that pg or birth. After that, the wheels fell off the bus. I had an ectopic pg in 2000 and a miscarriage in 2001 at 9 wks. Then I got sick. No one was ever able to determine exactly what was wrong with me. I got treated for lyme disease although none of the lyme tests came back pos. I was on medications for many years so I couldn't take the chance of getting pg. Then, when I was 'released', we tried again and got pg. in 2005. That ended in a chemical pg. I tried the fertility specialist in 2006 and had the same outcome. My marriage was strained after that. We needed a break. My last pg happened when no one was watching - total surprise. It was the most pg I have felt. Had all the symptoms. Honestly, I have felt lousy since getting pg. But I wasn't complaining. I had a slight showing on Sunday and knew something was wrong. I went to the dr. on Monday to confirm. I chose to have the d & c because I couldn't go through doing it on my own again.
I feel cheated, angry, sad, lost. I am 40 yo. I don't know where to go from here. I know I have to get through it - I have dd to take care of. DH has been great, but as many of you know, he doesn't quite understand how I feel. I have to face the world of pg women again and not be a part of it. UGH
I have had a ton of testing done, and so far, there is no reason as to why I can't hold on to a pg. I will be making an appt with my ob to go over options. In the meantime, I have to go for blood work to be sure my numbers are coming back down to zero. (Insult to injury)
If anyone should read this, I was just wondering how you 'moved on'? Did you ttc again, give up, adopt....? I have a couple of months to think about all this. Right now, I'm really confused and upset and depressed. Of course I would love to keep trying, but I'm not sure if I can take it anymore.
I would love to hear what your thought process was.