My wonderful husband brought Damien home today. He even took the responsibility of explaining what the urn is to Frankie. When I saw the urn I cried. Next, I got really angry. I mean why do I have to settle for velvet, metal and ashes? Why can't I have my baby boy? I am now just numb. I know that I will go through many days of emotional turmoil but I honestly believe now that Damien is here with us that our whole family can start to truly heal.