I guess I need to do one of these things, even though I hate them. I feel like I'm walking into a room full of people who are all having these interesting conversations, and then I stumble in and interrupt them all.
My name is Karen, I'm 40 y.o. and have lost two babies since Sept. 07. The first due to an ectopic pregnancy; the second just last week when it was discovered that my baby's heart had stopped beating somewhere around 11 weeks.
I had a d&c this past Monday and am still dealing with the physical 'side effects' (bleeding, cramping, etc.). I had thought the bleeding had stopped, but I must have pushed myself a little too much yesterday, because things started up again.
We're waiting for the genetic test results to see if there is any answer for us as to why this happened.
DH and I haven't decided yet if we plan to TTC again. We spent 3 years TTC, only to have both end in heartache. I just don't know if my heart is up to the task, and I really think we need to do some healing before we make any decisions.
Right now, I fluctuate daily between sadness, frustration, and anger. I never knew anything could be so painful and consuming. I sometimes think it would be easier to simply not care, but for me, that's impossible.
Y'all can go back to your regularly scheduled conversations. Thanks for listening.