I didn't realize this board was here as well as the TTCAL. I am finding both SO therapeutic (thanks to everyone who shares their stories and provides support, it's so helpful), I would like to post my story here as well:
Hi all, I found such solace in this board and a lot of answers when I had my last m/c - 2 years ago. We took quite a break from TTC and were very excited when we found out we were pregnant this past Nov. I made it to almost 17 weeks, but the baby had stopped growing around 14.5 weeks. We went in for an amnio and they realized he/she was small, but weren't sure why. It sent up red flags, though my Dr. told me not to panic. Yeah, right.
Anyways, the next week, the amnio was rescheduled but the baby had no heartbeat. My world stopped. I didn't hear a single word the Dr. said after "I have some sad news, your baby has no heartbeat..."
Now the Dr's prefer me to m/c naturally, so here I sit, waiting. I actually prefer it this way as it gives me some control over things. I want to say goodbye to my LO in person.
This is heartwrenching. How can I ever go into another pregnancy and not panic the whole 9 months?? My emotions are all over the place, but for the most part I am pi**ed off at the world. I'm sure I'm not very enjoyable to be around. I know it'll pass with time as I grieve for my baby, but that seems like a lifetime away...