I am, well I guess I should say was, part of the Dec 2007 birth boad. Here is what I posted there. I can't type it again.
My sweet, sweet, sweet baby girl is gone. No one knows why it happened. I had an emer csection on 12/22 and my baby girl Zara Beth was born at 3:24am. She was 7lb10oz and was 20 inches long. They were never able to get her to breathe or have a heartbeat. This is so real and at the same time so hard to believe. I held her and every single little thing about her was perfect. Her nose, her eyes, her lips, her little baby fingers and toes and arms and legs, just everything. I miss her so much. We are in shock. I can't believe I had to leave the hospital last night without my baby girl. I will post more when I can and also may share some pictures of my beautiful perfect baby when I can. I just can not believe this has happened. Instead of dealing with late night feedings I am arranging a funeral for my baby. There is nothing that could ever be as horrible as this. Nothing.
I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. I don't know how anyone can deal with a loss at full term. I was 40w5d. My baby's heart was beating at least a minute before she was born because I heard it but she never breathed on her on and they tried to revive her for 15 minutes before they gave up. No one knows what happened. She was only in distress for 8 mins (from the first signs of her heartbeat going up and down to when she was taken from my stomach).