My loss (m/c ment)

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My loss (m/c ment)

I lost my baby last night. This might be graphic, so please, if that will be hard for you don't read farther. I thank you all for your support and love.

I had been spotting...since last Monday, did an U/S on Tuesday to show a 9.5 week baby and heartbeat.

Last night, I got up at 3am to put Nolan back to bed and thought I'd go pee. I sat down on the toilet and felt a gentle slide and 'plop'. I thought it was just a clot, but wanted to be sure. There was no bleeding really and no pain at all.

I got some silicone food tongs from the kitchen and picked up the clot...as I pulled it from the water the blood washed away and there was my perfect baby. She had eyelids, arms and legs. I think I shreiked. I wasn't prepared to see that. There was no placenta, just the wee babe.

I cried a lot. I feel like I was probably a raving lunatic for an hour. My DH called my mom...she got my baby from where I had dropped her and we went to the ER. The scheduled me for an ultrasound for Tuesday.

I didn't make it to Tuesday. Around 11am this morning I stood up and started gushing. It wouldn't stop. I was cramping too, so back to the ER we went. I got demerol and slept some. And U/S revealed some retained tissue but still too much bleeding.

And OB consult and within 15 minutes of the consult I was wheeled into the OR for a D&C. I'm home now. Groggy, tired and sad, but OK. I'm just glad that it's all over. I'm glad I got to see my baby, even though I wasn't prepared for it. I kept the baby and we will bury her tomorrow...she is so tiny! Just about 2" long.

Thank you all for your support. I really appreciate it.
Emily

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Em, I'm so sorry for your loss.

:bighug:

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I'm so sorry for your loss Sad
-Kit

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Emily I'm so sorry to hear you lost your baby Take your time grieving. This board is a great place to share with people who have been through a similar experience.

Take care of yourself :bigarmhug:

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Emily...

I am so, so, sorry you lost your baby Sad ...And in such a shocking way Sad

I will be thinking of you tomorrow, as you bury your little one :comfort:

I am sure you are already aware, that this board is a wonderful place to come and work through ones grief...We will all be here to help you get through the hard days, that you will have ahead of you...

Take one day at a time :comfort:

I know tomorrow will be a very difficult day for you...Please check in so we know how you are holding together...if you are able..

Marie

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I'm so sorry, Em. :bigarmhug:

~Heather

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I'm so sorry Emily to hear about your recent loss. I can't imagine the pain that you and your DH felt. My thoughts are with you all. :bigarmhug: :bigarmhug: :bigarmhug:

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I am so so sorry for your loss.

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I am so very sorry for your loss. I know that it is really of little comfort, but my Damien will be in heaven waiting for her to play with her and be her companion. In the few days that I have been on this board I have actually been able to find a small piece of emotional healing. I hope that you too find peace when you are ready.

Shelly

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em,

i am so sorry. i know i have not been around much but wanted to come give my love to you. you will be in my thoughts and prayers

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I am so, so sorry. Sad :bigarmhug:

-Sara

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:bigarmhug:

I'm so so sorry Em! I can't imagine losing a baby that way! I'll be thinking about you tomorrow as you bury your little one.

~Amber~

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I am so so sorry for your loss.

:bighug:

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I am so very sorry for your loss. :cry: :bigarmhug: colleen

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I am so very sorry. I will be thinking of you today.

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Oh, God, Em...I'm so sorry. No one should have to go through that. I am thinking of you and sending you big hugs all the way from Kansas.

:bighug:

-Rachel

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I am so sorry to learn of your loss. I'll be thinking of you during this painful time.

Lindy

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Emily,
I am so sorry for your loss. :bighug:
You have been through a very painful expereince. I will be praying for you.
Denise

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Emily, I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing your experience. I wish I could give you a real big hug in person! :bighug: I'm thinking of you today (especially).

Much to you and your family.

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Emily, I'm so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you and your family.

Heather

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:bighug:

I'm so sorry.

My sister's 2nd m/c happened that same exact way. Seeing that still bothers her to this day.

I hope you heal quickly.

:bighug:

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Oh Emily Sad

I am so sorry (((HUGS)))

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Emily, just wanted to say I am so sorry for your loss. I too hope you heal quickly, Hugs!

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Emily,

I'm so sorry.

Nicole