I lost my baby last night. This might be graphic, so please, if that will be hard for you don't read farther. I thank you all for your support and love.
I had been spotting...since last Monday, did an U/S on Tuesday to show a 9.5 week baby and heartbeat.
Last night, I got up at 3am to put Nolan back to bed and thought I'd go pee. I sat down on the toilet and felt a gentle slide and 'plop'. I thought it was just a clot, but wanted to be sure. There was no bleeding really and no pain at all.
I got some silicone food tongs from the kitchen and picked up the clot...as I pulled it from the water the blood washed away and there was my perfect baby. She had eyelids, arms and legs. I think I shreiked. I wasn't prepared to see that. There was no placenta, just the wee babe.
I cried a lot. I feel like I was probably a raving lunatic for an hour. My DH called my mom...she got my baby from where I had dropped her and we went to the ER. The scheduled me for an ultrasound for Tuesday.
I didn't make it to Tuesday. Around 11am this morning I stood up and started gushing. It wouldn't stop. I was cramping too, so back to the ER we went. I got demerol and slept some. And U/S revealed some retained tissue but still too much bleeding.
And OB consult and within 15 minutes of the consult I was wheeled into the OR for a D&C. I'm home now. Groggy, tired and sad, but OK. I'm just glad that it's all over. I'm glad I got to see my baby, even though I wasn't prepared for it. I kept the baby and we will bury her tomorrow...she is so tiny! Just about 2" long.
Thank you all for your support. I really appreciate it.