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My story

Hi everyone,

I am Tara and unfortunately belong here. I can't even think of going to a birth board that I belong to.

My journey started a year ago while TTC#3. It took 11 months of Clomid and metfomin to conceive. We finally did...and were over joyed. Everything was going great......m/s wasn't that bad, I could handle it. We were gonna have a baby at Easter '09.

Friday I woke up at 4:30am having to go pee......for some reason, I didn't want to get up......I was scared. So when I finally go up I touched my belly and it was all wet. Hoping that I had peed myself, but knew better I got to the bathroom and turned on the lights to see myself covered in blood. As soon as I sat down the clots began to fall out. I was devastated. I called my dr, who wasn't in that morning and got the number of the oncall OB in my hospital. Called and they told me to come in. I went and started having contractions. They did an u/s and found nothing except some tissue that wouldn't let go. so they gave me some meds and sent me home. I took the meds and the Tylenol 3 as well and within an hour I was in the most pain I have even been in in my life. They put me in full labour to pass the tissue. After 2 hrs of pain it finally subsided, but I ws still haveing minor contractions until Sunday morning when I fianlly passed what looked like the baby.

I am now lost. I don't know what to do. I should be getting a call from my OB for a follow up appt. I will have to wait for AF to show before I can start my meds again....when that will be is anyone's guess. I don't get AF unless I am medicated. I want to start TTC right away that bad???

Thanks for listening.

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Hugs and prayers Tara, I am so very sorry for your loss. I think if you let the doc know how anxious you are to be back on board with ttc, and remind him how you need meds to even get af, that he may help you out there, or should. I was ready to ttc again before the 2mo were up my doc recommended we wait (I had d&cs both times). I hope you have a bfp very soon!

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I'm sorry for your loss. :bigarmhug:

Hope you physically feel better soon. The emotional part takes longer.

***child mentioned
As for telling your 4 year old (I saw you mention this on another board), we got this book "We Were Gonna Have a Baby, But We Had an Angel Instead " when when had to tell our 3 year old about the loss of his brother.

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I am so very sorry for your loss.


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Im so sorry that you are here! But I hope you recieve all the support that you need from these wonderful ladies on this board! I am so sorry that you had to endure such horrible pain both physically and emotionally. Do what you need to do to heal yourself.

As for feeling ready to TTC again, I felt fine to TTC again and my doc gave me the ok right away to try, and said really the only reason they tell ladies to wait is for dating purposes (unless they need more healing time). I hope that helps.

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I'm so very sorry Tara Sad

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Last seen: 3 years 8 months ago
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I am truly sorry for your loss. A week ago today my doctor induced labor because my baby had died. I was 17 weeks pregnant. I'm glad I was able to get an epidural and not have the physical pain of what you had, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Please PM me if you want to talk.

*Living Children Mentioned**

I was also TTC #3 and I have a 9 year old and a 4 year old. Sounds like we have similar situations.

Hang in there.

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I am so sorry for your loss, and for your physical suffering too. It's a horrible shock to suddenly lose a baby 'without warning".

We're all here for you on this board, and we're going to help you through this. Please "vent", etc -- whenever you need to.

Big hugs,

Last seen: 7 years 6 months ago
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:bighug: I am sorry for everything you are going through.

With my losses I always wanted to try again right away. In fact we did half-heartedly try even before my first AF each time (they were first trimester losses and I had medical management rather than surgery). Maybe you can talk to your doc about inducing your AF if it takes a long time to come back given that it is something you have struggled with in the past.

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Tara, I am so sad for you. :bighug: We shared a due date and now we share a similar pain. I have been avoiding this board for 2 weeks now as well as the April '09 board...I feel a similar loss. I don't know what to do with myself these days. We lost our baby too, at 11 1/2 weeks and I haven't been on since it happened to post about it. I've been kind of hiding out and avoiding the world. If you need to talk feel free to PM me.

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I too was part of the April 09 board. I was having almost no symptoms and was feeling fine. My baby was growing good despite my hcg levels. Then one day while sitting in the car I felt wet. I decided to check because it felt like I had peed my pants and came up with huge amonts of blood. My baby was confirmed to have passed 4 hours later and within 5 days I saw my ob and told her I wanted an immediate d&c. Less then 24 hours later she had me in and done. We havent got the complete go ahead but are ttc and hoping to get a bfp soon. Ive always had a hard time telling my almost 4 yr old and just explain the new baby in mommys tummy wanted to play with sissy in heaven. She never asks too many questions but is usually sad.

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I am so sorry about your loss. Sad I wish that nobody had to come to this board, but please draw comfort from the fact that there are others who know precisely what you are going through. This place can be a comfort to us all...