The anniversary of jamie's death is fast approaching and I feel more and more depressed each day. I find myself resenting and being jealous of my co workers who are giving birth in the next 24 hours or who have just had their babies in the last month. I find myself literally hiding in the bathroom at work so i do not have to see their babies. The dreams are coming back more frequently and I am becoming more irritable. I do not know what to do. I cannot talk to anyone about it because nobody understands. I just want to hold my baby in my arms. It is just so unfair. I am hurting all over again and i am not sure how to handle this. I do not want to go back to that dark place that i was in before. I fought really hard to "snap out of it" but I just hate this feeling. It feels like I cannot breath sometimes. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.