Need to whine (M/C, preg, and TTC ment)

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Need to whine (M/C, preg, and TTC ment)

I need to come B**** and whine alittle. It is almost Sept, with the way my pregnnacys all go I should be nursing my little girl right now or about to have her. I keep finding myself lurking on the Sept board and thats not helping at all. Why can't I be the one going into labor. Instead I lost my little Abby at almost 15 weeks. Yesterday I had to take my 7yr to the ER because he cut his hand open at school. The room we were in just happened to be the one where we lost our baby. I wanted so bad to cry but I had to suck it in and be strong for my son. On top of everything we started to TTC I will be starting cycle 3. I never knew something could be so draining. Anyways thanks for letting me whine I knew you ladies would understand. :bigarmhug: to you all.

Tori

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I am sorry that things are so hard for you now. :bigarmhug:

Shelly

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Talk about bad luck with the ER room. I'm so sorry for you. It's wierd how sometimes everything is fine and others, all we can think about it our pain. I haven't lurked on the October board at all. I delted it off my favorites right away. I know it's mean, but I don't want to know how everyone is doing. It's just too painfull to know that others are preparing for a baby when I'm not. Keep your chin up though. Those good days, they are good right?

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I'm so sorry for your loss and pain.

You're right: it IS very difficult. I once heard one of the world's top clinical psychologists say that the worst grief of all is when we lose a child. How true.

I'm glad you've vented here -- it's so healthy to get it out. Doing so will help you to shift more quickly through the grief too.

So "whine" away whenever you need to! We all do! And we're all here for you. We're going to help you through this.

Bear hugs,
Nicole

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hugs hon. I would have been miserable in the er. :bigarmhug: And I occasionally lurk on the Mar 08 board (still) and a little more on Dec 08. It hurts so much that I am not holding a baby and/or finding out what I am having. Sad Please vent any time! I hope your ttc journey is short.

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So sorry you are going through this difficult time. I hear ya on the lurking on the birth board. I really have to use will power not to go to the FEB. 09 board, but I remind myself how much it hurts to read their happy and excited posts. Good luck in TTC.

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Life is just so unfair sometimes. I really thought that as we got older it would get easier but then something like this just slaps you upside the head when you're least expecting it! I always and still do admire women who have had losses and who can get through the day, do regular things, and take care of their families. You are a strong woman. Please whine whenever you want to. I think it helps even if just a little!

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I am sorry you had to go to the ER and have all those thoughts and feeling come rushing back.

IMHO, I would stay away from the BB. It will only pour salt in your already open wounds.

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Tori, I am so sorry you are feeling this way...I am having a really hard time dealing with the fact Sept is here too. I was doing soo well. I thought...I had really pushed it out of my head...that I should be delivering a baby any day now...or be holding a new baby right now. But the last couple of days...its been quite awful. I had stayed away from Sept bb, and now I find myself going there...and it is just awful. So, I just want to let you know, Ill be thining of you and you are not alone!