Nervous (PG and MC Ment)

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Nervous (PG and MC Ment)

Update:
I'm currently loosing this pregnancy too. I'm kinda numb about the whole thing. Even though it was a stupid thing to do, I come home to Ontario from Alberta for spring break as planned and just hoped not to go into major MC on the plane. I made it home and I"m doing my best to keep busy until I loose the baby. I've been bleeding for three days now and my back is hurting quite a bit. I just want the pain to hurry up and get here so I can get on with my life! I know that sounds cold. But I'm just so dead to this entire situation emotionally. I just have no depression left. It took me almost a year to get out of my depression last time. I'm just so out of it. i wish I could just go into emergency, get a D&C and move on. But for some reason, they don't do that. I have to go through this whole painfull heartbreaking experience again at home. Why? I don't get it. I'm just so bitter. Thanks for listening.

I miscarried a year ago in April. It took me a very long time to "get over it". In fact, I was so afraid to get pregnant again that I went on bc for most of the year. Hubby and I didn't talk about ttc until about two months ago. Well, after not very long trying, here I am with a possitive pee stick. I'm really excited but I'm also terrified. I can't even imagine going through another loss. The physical and emotional pain and the months of depression that followed. I mean, just last week I was bitter over yet another friend getting pregnant. I was all (in my head of course) why does she deserve a baby and I don't. I"m sure you know what I mean. Anyway, I'm happy and terrified all at the same time. I had to vent to people who would get it. I'm not sure this board is a good place. I know how I feel about pregnant people since the mc but I also know that if your able to read this, you will know what I'm feeling. Thanks for listening.

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:bigarmhug:

Congrats on the BFP! It's a rough road, pregnancy after a loss.

Have you checked out the pregnant after a loss board? It's a great place.

Janel

Joined: 03/16/15
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Congrats!!! I'm happy for you. I know you are scared, but it will work out.

Joined: 01/25/02
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congrats hon. I understand the range of emotions, so btdt. Definitely try out PAL, and try not to worry (so much easier said than done!)

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Joined: 09/28/02
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Good Luck to you and i hope everything works out for you.

Tina

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Congrats! Long time no talk! I hope all is well and you kno, you can PM me at any time & if you need help with finding a doc again, let me know!

:bighug:

Diane

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Congrats to you. I really hope this works out.

Ali

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(((((HUGS)))))) I'm sorry that you are dealing with this again. I know how difficult that waiting can be. Each woman... and well, even each pregnancy loss (for those that go through this more than once) can be so very different in how everything progresses. For the most part, I have preferred to allow my body to handle things naturally, but certainly I do understand why someone would opt for a D & C instead. The *pain* (physical and emotional) of having things drag out can get to you.

I hope that you will not mind my prying -- but you did not share whether the bleeding was heavy, any clots passed, or whether it was steady but not *heavy*. If the latter is the case that may be why they are taking a "wait and see" attitude instead. I'm not familiar with the healthcare system there. Are you able to request a D & C or is that option only available under particular circumstances? Next question - did they give you any sort of time frame to deal with before you go back?

Right now, I know you are hurting. I don't view your post as "cold" at all. I totally get that *desire* (for lack of a better term) of having dealt with the physical aspect of a loss if a loss is going to happen so that you can at least begin on the journey towards healing. Feeling forced to remain in limbo before that can even begin hurts.

I am glad that you did come and update and hope that you will continue to talk here. There's no way that any of us can make things *better* but together we can at least help you shoulder it all.

Take care,

~Missy

Joined: 03/16/15
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Sending prayers. I know it is hard and it is not fair. It took a long time after I lost my first baby to get "over it". Do not let this get you into a depression again.
Please remember this is not your fault. I hope things "move" quickly for you and you are not in too much pain.

Joined: 01/25/02
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Hugs and prayers. My first loss I wanted to wait it out and not have a d&c, but the second time around, when I knew it was over, I wanted it over. I totally get ya there.

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Joined: 09/28/02
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I am really sorry that things did not work out for you this time. I wish you well and i hopoe everything goes OK for you until this is over.

Tina

Joined: 03/16/15
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How are you doing honey?