I'm currently loosing this pregnancy too. I'm kinda numb about the whole thing. Even though it was a stupid thing to do, I come home to Ontario from Alberta for spring break as planned and just hoped not to go into major MC on the plane. I made it home and I"m doing my best to keep busy until I loose the baby. I've been bleeding for three days now and my back is hurting quite a bit. I just want the pain to hurry up and get here so I can get on with my life! I know that sounds cold. But I'm just so dead to this entire situation emotionally. I just have no depression left. It took me almost a year to get out of my depression last time. I'm just so out of it. i wish I could just go into emergency, get a D&C and move on. But for some reason, they don't do that. I have to go through this whole painfull heartbreaking experience again at home. Why? I don't get it. I'm just so bitter. Thanks for listening.
I miscarried a year ago in April. It took me a very long time to "get over it". In fact, I was so afraid to get pregnant again that I went on bc for most of the year. Hubby and I didn't talk about ttc until about two months ago. Well, after not very long trying, here I am with a possitive pee stick. I'm really excited but I'm also terrified. I can't even imagine going through another loss. The physical and emotional pain and the months of depression that followed. I mean, just last week I was bitter over yet another friend getting pregnant. I was all (in my head of course) why does she deserve a baby and I don't. I"m sure you know what I mean. Anyway, I'm happy and terrified all at the same time. I had to vent to people who would get it. I'm not sure this board is a good place. I know how I feel about pregnant people since the mc but I also know that if your able to read this, you will know what I'm feeling. Thanks for listening.