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Hello I'm Karen (24) and I'm married to DH James (24). We just experienced our first lost on September 29th and I've been lurking here some since then but didnt really know what to say.

I'm sorry that all of you had to experience something so terrible.

Here is our story as I remember it.

Savannah Jean Quinn
Stillborn 9/29/07 @ 8:10am
8lbs 14.6 oz, 19 inches

We got to the hospital at 7am and the nurse asked me about a thousand questions. She mentioned my pulse being high and said it was 144 but really didn’t seem all that concerned. Next time she took it, it was down to 114. I guess that should have been the first clue something was wrong- but who would have guessed. The Dr. showed up about 7:30, checked me and said I was 5-6 centimeters dilated. He went ahead and broke my water. A little blood came out as soon as he did. He thought it was show at first and said we’d keep an eye on it. A few minutes later a little more blood started coming out and the monitor lost Savannah's heartbeat. The nurse called another nurse in to try and find her heart beat so she could start my IV. They would pick it up for a while but it was only in the 40’s-50’s. The Dr. rushed in and put an internal on. It was still in the 40’s- 50’s with an occasional jump up into the 70’s. This is when I start to get scared. They got the internal in, the IV in, and I got a couple of shots. I’m not really sure what they were for. Right then the Dr. said we were going for a c- section. I remember DH saying ‘so I just stay here’ and they said ‘yes’. They started wheeling me down the hall and I didn’t even have my admission bracelet on or any blood work done. They drew my blood in the middle of the hall. I’m kneeling on all fours because this seems to be the position that she can tolerate the best. By the time we got to the OR there was blood clear up on my pillow. There was a lot coming out. I crawled over onto the table and about 2 minutes later there was a huge gush of blood and clots. I know some of them had to be the size of baseballs from the way they felt. I remember being really cold and shaking but I’m not sure if it’s because it was actually cold or because I was scared. I wanted my husband and my baby. They spent about 15 seconds prepping me for surgery and the Dr. gave me a couple of shots of local anesthetic. The anesthesiologist eventually made it but we didn’t have time to wait for it to take effect. He said that I was going to feel some of it and I said okay. I knew that she needed to be born quickly so I wasn’t too worried about it. I don’t think I really understood that, that meant he was going to completely cut me open while I laid there screaming though. After what seemed like forever I was out.


Next thing I remember is waking up in the recovery room. The first words out of my mouth were ‘is she okay’. I was told the Dr. would be in a few minutes to talk to me. At that point I knew something was wrong but I didn’t expect to hear what I did. After me asking a few more times what was going on and eventually getting pissed off because it seemed to be taking forever… James and Dr. Kesselring walked in. As soon as James saw me he started crying. I knew right then that it was the worst. I said ‘she isn’t okay is she’ and he said ‘no.’ The three of us spent a few minutes talking and the Dr. tried to explain what he thought happened. We still haven’t gotten the official report back but he is almost positive that our baby had vasa previa and a severe placental abruption.


Shortly after they brought our beautiful baby to us and we spent time holding her and letting her know that mommy & daddy love her.


Thanks for letting me share.

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Oh wow Karen! That was heartbreaking to read. I'm SO sorry for your loss!! I can't imagine what you're going through and I wish there was something I could say to make it all better. I hope and pray you're healing physically, as well as emotionally. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

-Kat

Joined: 03/16/15
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I am so sorry for your lose. I hope you are beginning to heal. Come and talk anytime.

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Joined: 08/24/07
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I am sorry you lost your baby and wow. Hugs during this hard time.

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Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for your loss...
Thinking of you and sending lots of thoughts and hugs your way...
:bighug:
~Laurie

Joined: 09/15/07
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I am so sorry for your loss. That is just so heartbreaking, I just can't imagine! I hope you have alot of support during this difficult time.

Joined: 03/11/07
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I was so sorry Karen to hear about your lost. I'm just at a lost for words right now. :bigarmhug::bigarmhug:

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I am so very sorry for the loss of your daughter.. Sad

This board is a wonderful place to come and start the healing process...as you already know from lurking for a bit....I am glad you came *out*..

Know that we are all here for you anytime :comfort:

Marie

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Joined: 09/07/07
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Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am so sorry for the loss that you and your DH had to experience. I pray that in time you will be able to heal physically and emotionally.:bigarmhug:

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I am so very sorry for your loss, you and your family will be in my prayers
Sarah

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My friend lost her gorgeous first born son to vasa previa nearly a year ago. It was the single most devastating thing any of us had experienced at that point. I am so terribly sorry for you loss.

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I am so very sorry. Shelly

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I am so very, very sorry for your loss

Uropachild's picture
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Hey sweetie. I am so glad you decided to post.

I read your story through blurred vision. So much of it rings true with what happened to me and it guts me. Sad I wish it didnt have to happen to others, knowing how much it hurts.

I'm glad you posted here. These ladies have been my lifeline over this past year.

:bighug:

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I'm so sorry for your loss, and that you had to have such a heartbreaking and painful labor. Sad There is lots of love and healing to be found here, and I hope that you find as much comfort as you need.

:bighug:

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I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I've got your entire family in my prayers, I wish there was more that I can do.

(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) to you- stay strong!

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Joined: 03/05/07
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I am so very sorry for your loss and what you went through. I wish you alot of comfort during this time.

Bonnie

Joined: 05/04/06
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Thank you for all your kind words. I will try and post more over here...

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I am so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something I could say to ease the pain a little, I know there isn't. Just know that you and your family are in my prayers and I hope you can find the peace that you need.

Amy

Joined: 06/18/06
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:comfort: Karen, I can't imagine your pain. Savannah, and you & your family, are in my heart.