I guess I just want to post what I'm feeling somewhere.
I m/c at just over 5 weeks this past weekend. I want to start by saying my DH is a great guy, very supportive, but I'm feeling unsupported right now. My DH doesn't understand why I'm upset, he keeps saying it was nature's way of "getting rid" of a baby that would not make it. He says I really wasn't that pregnant anyway, so it's just like getting AF a bit late. I've explained to him that I am upset, I am disappointed, I'm feeling like my hormones are all over the place, and I feel like I lost a "real" baby. He's backed off now, and I think he's starting to get it, but don't think he'll ever really get it.
I'm just feeling really sad today. I had started to get my hopes up, starting to think about next June and what I would need to get done before then.
I guess this past weekend was just so rotten. I was visiting my parents, half way across the country when it started on Saturday, I couldn't tell anyone what was going on because I hadn't told anyone I was pregnant (except DH), plus my family is going through a rough time with my sister (she's very ill), so I didn't want to stress anyone out. So all weekend I had to attend all these visits and functions, and seem happy, and all the time I'm just feeling so rotten (physically and emotionally). We finally got home last night, and I finally got to lay on my bed and cry.
Anyway, I just wanted to write this down somewhere. Just get it out of my head I guess.