Hi everybody. I haven't posted here but have been lurking. I was due in May 08 and found at my 9 week ultrasound that the baby was not alive so I had a D&C last Thursday, just over a week ago.
It has been rough but with lots of prayers and support I really felt like I was recovering emotionally. Not that it won't always hurt but I was coping out in the world and grieving just in the quiet moments of the day.
Today I went grocery shopping and it just seemed that everybody in there had an infant in a carseat or they were holding their infants happily while they shopped. This unexpectedly made me just have a sinking feeling and I wanted to just hurry up and get out of the store. Then I came home and laid in bed the entire afternoon, napping off and on. I don't know how I can be so insensitive to my beautiful, loving, happy 4 year old but I couldn't help it. I wonder if this will keep happening forever. I can't go 5 feet down the street without seeing people with babies so I just don't know how those that have had losses of their children cope with it.
ETA that my husband was home all day with us and I did not leave my 4 yr old alone while I stayed in bed