Hi, my name Tori I never ever thought I would be introducing my self here but I guess none of us do. I am a mom of 3 boys Patrick 8, Hayden 6, and Andrew 14 months. I was due to have my newest on Sept 9th. I have copied my story from my birth bored so I did not have to type i agian
If you remember I had some bleeding two weeks ago, we went in and the baby was fine. I had contiuned to bleed off and on since then. Last night I started bleeding abit heavier, I just thought everything was okay since my doc said sometimes women bleed. This morning I woke up and the bleeding was heavier and I was starting to get some mild cramps. I called the doctor and they wanted me to come in. I called DH he was at work told him I was going in but I was pretty sure everything was okay that i would just call him, Mom kept Andrew. I got there and she did a belly u/s and there was my baby heartbeat 158 she waved to me and she kicked so hard we heard it. The tech wanted to to a tranvag U/S to see where the bleeding was coming from. The baby was moving around the entire time. She looked at me and said she needed to talk to the doctor and she would be back. My heart dropped. They came back and said my cervix was completly open (fully dialated). I was miscarring my baby. I called DH and he came right up. While I waited for him my contractions were coming very hard. We choose to go ahead for the D/C. They took me next door to the hospital. The whole time I was in so much pain. When I got into a room I got undressed right when I was getting into the bed, I got a gush of water and something very warm between my legs the baby came out. She hit the floor DH and I were the only ones in there He yelled for a nurse and held me and tried to get me to not look, but how could I that was my baby. She was perfect in everyway her tiny hands and feet gosh she was so little. My doctor wanted to go ahead and do the D/C to get everything else out. Everything from then on was a blur. I remember waking up in recovery and I thought I had dreamed the hole thing. I need to be sleeping now but my heart hurts so bad. My mind won't stop racing. I two days shy of 15 weeks. Why now?!?! My Baby was a baby girl. They are going to try to see why I miscarried. Sorry this is so misspelled and might not make any since I am a mess right now. Love you all!
I am hurting so bad I never in my life thought I could feel this much pain. I keep thinking what if? I hate that I did not pick her up that I just let her lay in the floor. I just miss her so much already I am empty inside. It is so hard with a 14month old around he hates to see me cry. My mom is here for the next week but he still sees how upset his momma is.