I am in shock. This week I went for my first ob appt. and the doctor wanted to do a dating u/s because I wasn't exactly sure of my dates. At the u/s the tech couldn't find anything in the gestational sac, no fetal pole. I was measuring 7 weeks, which is probably about right considering when I think I O'd. I was stunned. It was the last thing I thought would happen. I've had no bleeding, no pain, mild symptoms. My OB says it doesn't look good--it is most likely a blighted ovum and wants me to come back in two weeks for another ultrasound.
I am just in disbelief. I felt this was a miracle baby as we only wanted two children, the pg came at such a bad time in my life, and considering how often my dh and I have been DTD after my last baby (it was painful and I have been suffering from ppd), it felt like it was just meant to be.
After the initial shock and panic of the bfp, I had really come to terms with having this baby and was REALLY excited about it. And then to find out there isn't a baby is devastating. And now I just have to wait to miscarry (I don't want a D&C) all the while keeping it together for my 3 and 1 year old sons.
Even though I have two beautiful children, this is still heart wrenching. I keep thinking that after I miscarry, I want to try to conceive again. How crazy is that when two months ago I didn't even want three children! I feel like if I don't try for another baby something will always be missing.
Thanks for listening...