Ladies, last night I had an awaking. I have wasted 7 months of my life grieving, crying, panic, and depressed. These are 7 months that I will not get back, 7 months that I have neglected my husband, home, and family. Sarah said something that struck a cord, I spend entirely too much time dreading and dwelling in my losses. Things that I can not change. Therefore I am not going to be posting here as much. I will still linger around and by all means if you need me I am only a pm away. You have become such a great support system for me through this time and for that I thank you. I will be on the IVF boards and TTCafter loss boards, not that I am ready, but to help refocus me that I can be pregnant again one day and that hope is still there.
Thank you so much for all your advice and guidance, I would not have gotten through the first month of my loss without you ladies. I need to push myself to try to get better physically and emotionally and I think spending less time on the boards and more in reality will help.
It is going to be hard because you ladies are my cyber sisters but I need to get stronger on my own. This is not goodbye but good luck at all.