It's been a month since my loss. Still not feeling much better. It goes up and down. Yesterday was a good day and I managed to get out with some friends. But now I am right back down into the depression and funk. I wish I could feel like myself again, but I feel as if I never will, because I am a different person now. Nothing makes sense anymore....
I miss my little one.
Hang in there, it does get better.
I didn't sleep much last night (again). I woke up this morning with a headache and feeling nauseous. So I called in sick to work. I feel really guilty that I called in, especially since I have only been there a month. But I can't keep running on empty... I just feel awful all the time. I wish I felt normal again.
Honey, have you started your depression medication? It does take a few weeks before they kick in, so hang in there.
I know you are trying honey. Losing a baby is one of the hardest things one deals with, but it seems to be overtaking your life and defining who you are. I was in your shoes exactly on 2002 and it is not a fun place to be, it was even down right scary. Not only are you dealing with the loss, but also dealing with an idiot of an ex. However, do not cut yourself off from the world.
Keep posting and sharing your feelings. You can PM me anytime.
I'm so sorry....it's so hard, especially when you get into a funk. Just know that we are here for you. You're in my thoughts hun.
I'm sorry to hear that you're still running on empty. I think part of the problem is that you're not getting good sleep which is componding the issue. Of course you can't get good sleep because of your grief and mind racing.. etc. Maybe you can see the doctor and get something to help you sleep and then maybe you can at least start functioning again - I won't say you'll feel "better" emotionally, that will still take time, but if physically you can feel better, it will help the emotion part.
Just want you to know that it does get better. Sending you hugs of support. Oh, and a natural remedy for sleep is melatonin. My children take it as well, their neurologist and pediatrician highly recommend it. Over the counter at Wal-Mart and does amazing for sleep. Hope you're doing okay tonight.