A year ago today I started spotting/bleeding. I can't believe it's been a whole year, and I'm still not pregnant. We went to my stepdaughter's Christmas concert last night and wierd as it sounds that brought a replay of that night to my head. It was at her concert that I started getting bad cramps and bleeding and that's the night I ended up in the ER. It was just wierd being back in that same place. Seems like my life, in some ways, was put on hold after the loss and it won't get back on track again until I'm pregnant. She loves babies and when I see her with our new niece it about breaks my heart. I just want to move on with my life and I'm hoping for a Christmas BFP. I so want my 3 year old to become a big sister. I know this probably all sounds selfish and is basically just rambling but I can't seem to get things out of my head so I thought I'd attempt typing them out. I still lurk around here and I'm so sad everytime I see someone new that needs support. I'm glad there is always a wonderful group of ladies here to lend an ear, I just wish none of us had to go through this.