Picked up a book...

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Picked up a book...

I was at the bookstore today picking up a book I needed for a research paper on Endometriosis and right next to it was a book called To Full Term~A Mother's Triumph Over Miscarriage it's by Darci Klein. It's a memoir so it's written more as a story which is what I needed because I don't think I could handle any 'technical' stuff right now. I've read so much of that lately and I think my mind needs a break. I'll let you know how the story goes, if it's a good book or not. If anyone has read it, let me know what you thought.

Ya know, I really miss being pregnant lately. It's not the crying, feeling helpless, new loss kind of missing, but goes back and forth between an angry, crying, wanting to scream and hit something missing...and just thinking back and remembering how much I loved it kind of missing. I don't know. Maybe it's the full moon coming up or just something in the air...

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I only come in here once a week or so, because I can't stop crying listening to what everyone is going through. Also, I don't feel like I have anything useful to say most of the time. However, I am a big believer in venting and letting it out, so I think your feelings are completely normal. and I miss being pg too.

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I hope the book is a good one! I havent read much about loss, just the one book called "Trying Again, A Guide to Pregnancy After Miscarriage, Stillbirth & Infant Loss" I bought it after Zane died, but i've read parts of it again this time too.

Missing being pregnant happens to me all the time. I should be massive and uncomfortable. Sad Walking through a shop the other day i felt a real sence of injuctice and lack of control. I've felt that before, but this time it was more cutting and poignant. I dont know why it happened in a shop, i think there were baby clothes out. This sucks!

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Let us know how the book goes- It might be helpful for me to read something.

I think the holidays make not being pregnant/ having your babies a ton more difficult. I know I hate walking in the baby section because I so badly want to buy a little Christmas dress for Savannah. It sucks.

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Let me know how the book is.

I have slowed my visits here as well, some days I just cannot read about more losses that remind me of my pain.

The other day I saw a good friend from HS, she was very pregnant and I asked her when she was due, etc. Her small daughter asked me, "Do you have a baby in your tummy." It made me so sad, and I couldn't even deal with it, since I had to get back to work in a booth. I should be pregnant right now and have just found out what it it. Sad

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It might be the full moon, but I honestly think that the holidays coming up plays a big part. I am going through the same kind of missing feelings that you describe. Let us know how the book goes. I hope it gives you comfort. Shelly

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I am now past the wishing I was pg as I have just passed my c-s date and my EDD. Now it is the longing to have Lily with me. I should be carting her around everywhere I go. I miss her so much. I have no energy to do much of anything. I need to get some laundry and cleaning done today and I just can't get motivated to do it. I just want to go to the cemetery and be with her. The cemetery is about an hour and a half away so just dropping everything and going is easier said then done.

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Well, I'm only about 20 pages into it now, but I think I'm going to like it. She's already likeable (sp?) and determined to get it right this time. The woman who wrote the book had 2 early losses and she lost twins at 5 months. She already had a daughter who was born early and spent almost 2 months in NICU. She knows what she wants and finds a doctor who will work FOR and WITH her. Like I said, only 20 pages, but I think I'm gonna like it. However, it does already periodically make me cry, but just because she talks about all these feelings and being scared and all that.

I think it is the holidays. Sorry so many of you feel the same. Shelly, you and I seem to usually be on the same page. That's reassuring for me, but at the same time, I wish you were feeling better too. I wish all of you Happy Holidays, as happy as they can be at least.

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Let me know how the book is--I might be interested in reading that and the book sarah mentioned also.