Thread: Poems We've collected

These are both songs written by Anthony Stewart Head... I absolutely love them. I still cry when I listen to them...they just explain what I felt so easily...

End Game:
Look at me now
Never thought I'd be here
What was I thinking, what have I left undone, unspoken
Look at me, I feel a little helpless
Look at you
Looking down at me
It wasn't meant to happen like this
I need more time to set things right
Not ready to think these thoughts in the middle of the night
Life seems never ending, till its ending
Finite, sight unseen-we choose the path we walk
But is it meant to happen like this?
Do we need more time to set things right?
Are we ever prepared inside to say goodbye?
Look at you now
I never thought I'd see you here
How did I outlive you?
I couldn't see us apart, us broken
"The quality of your pain?" you said is deep inside your heart
It wasn't meant to happen like this
I need more time to set things right
Not ready to think these thoughts in the middle of the night
Is this right, that this really is the end?
It wasn't meant to happen like this
I need more time to set things right
Angels come in many guises to guide us
End Game

Babies (the inbetween):
A baby in a restaurant
So tiny her head fit into her father's hand
And as he look into her eyes she smiled
Not bothered by the loudness of the live rock n' roll band
And as I watched them both I longed to cradle you in my arms again
All I could really think of was
That I longed to hold my babies

A little later that same night
A child of eight or nine entered the dining room
She had the pale, poetic grace of that age
She was so tired she could hardly keep her eyes from closing
And as I watched her older sister lay her down between two chairs to sleep
All that I was thinking was
That I long to hold my babies

Looking at photographs
Watching you grow before my eyes
Remembering the moments the instant before the camera saw them
And as I smile at the times we shared
I'm reminded of all the inbetween
Christ, how I miss you, both then and now, my babies
I long to hold you in my arms, to know you're by my side
To feel your little hands in mine, to look into your trusting eyes
I long to be your Daddy, felt guilty for not being there for you
Oh, how I miss you, my babies

I guess it's a good thing the world can't drown from our tears huh? ....


Id like to share a few of the poems I have written myself....




Reasons
Thoughs of you keep running through my head.
Things you would have been, and things you could have said.
Reasons I'll never knokw why
You were taken from me, reasons I cry.
Reasons I was meant to never know you.
Reasons only GOd knows, things I know, too few.
Reasons I knew you, tiny as a bean
Reasons He knows, what kept you unseen.
Reasons why I will never know.
Reaons why He wanted you to go.
Go Home to Heaven my little one,
Go Home to Heaven, go and follow the Son.
He'll keep you safe and sound
til Mommy & Daddy are called Home from the ground.
Awaiting us in Heaven, there you will be
Arms open, and running to meet me.
My beautiful child, child I never knew.
Tears of joy in my eyes, finally to see you.
Keep watch over your big sisters and brothers,
keep watch for me, over all the others.
Baby sisters or brothers, I've also yet to meet..
keep them company as you sit at His feet.
Reasons He wants you there and not here
Reasons I'll never know, for you, I shed my tears.




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I miss you tonight, child of my heart.
I thought of you today, my beautiful one.
I dreamed of you earlier, my innocent sweet love,
I cried for you again, my gone, cherished soul.
You're in Heaven, no longer in my womb.
You'll remain in my heart, my angel sweetheart.




How Can I Forget?

How can I forget, the love I have for you?
How can I forget, happiness in my heart that grew?
How can I forget, finding out it's true,
How can I forget, inside of me was you!
How can I forget, the memory of all of this?
How can I forget, someone I never knew?




Time

As time goes on, the pain will subside.
As time goes on, tears will start to dry.
As time goes on, my heart won't be so heavy.
As time goes on, more children I will have.
As time goes on, and I'm walking that path,
That path we call life, which you were in it
If not for very much more than a minute.
As time goes on, I'll hold fast my memory
The memory of a short time you lived within me.
As time goes on, things get easier it's true.
As time goes on, NEVER will I forget you.



Lay Down

I lay my head down, and I try to sleep.
I lay my head down, and I start to weep.
Memories of what were, aren't.
Memories of what wasn't, are.
Never to have known you
Never to have felt you
Never to have seen you
I lay my head down, and I grieve for you
My tiny angel baby, I never ever knew.



Never Forget

I never got to know if you were a girl or a boy.
I never got to feel you kick and flutter about.
Please know, my precious baby, you gave my heart joy.

I didn't know about your presence for very long.
For some reason God decided it was best to take you Home.
Those reasons I'll never know, be it right or wrong.

It hurts to know that what once was is gone.
It hurts to know that I'm now all alone.
It hurts to know I'll never know your name,
But for your sisters and brothers, I must move on.

Please understand, my little angel, mommy can't forget.
I can't forget the excitement and love in my heart.
Even for someone I never saw, heard or felt.
In my heart you'll grow, my heart will never forget.

don't know if anyones pu tthis on here anywhere... I blurrily read over the previous posts on here... & posted a few of my own....

it's a song entitled "My Name" by George Canyon...

I used to have it playing on my poetry website called Lost Wombs.... but the song doesnt' work anymore.... but here are the lyrics.... written after a very good friend of his lost their pregnancy...




It's cold in here
Feels like everything's upside down.
I can feel you talkin'
But I can hardly make out the sound
And I've been kickin around these parts
Feels like a year
And I'm going to change this world
if I ever get out of here
She wants to dress me in pink
Paints my bedroom blue
And I just laugh to myself
'Cause only I know the truth

This love is my only emotion
Haven't learned any fear, any shame
It's kind of funny with all this commotion
Guess they've got me to blame
They don't even know my name
They don't even know my name

Well, I've never felt so ready
Think it's finally time
Cause that big ol' world is waiting
And it's mine, all mine
Just then everything got real quiet
And it got real bright
And a man took my hand, said don't worry
Your Mama's going to be alright
Then he opened the gate
And I followed him in
Said you can wait right here
'Til it's your turn again

His love is the one true emotion
Heaven knows no fear, no shame
NEver got to set my wheels in mothin
Bu tthey loved me just the same
They didn't even know my name
They didn't even know my name

I wrote your name on the sand...but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name on the sky...but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name on my heart...where forever it will stay


Wherever you are
by Richard M. Sherman and Robert B. Sherman

Come out moon, come out wishing star
Come out, come out, wherever you are

I'm out here in the dark, All alone and wide awake
Come and find me, I'm empty and I'm cold
And my heart is about to break, come and find me

I need you to come here and find me
Cause without you I'm totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are

I'll hear your laugh, I'll see your smile
I'll be with you for just a while, But when morning comes
And the sun begins to rise, I'll lose you

Because it's just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I'll lose you

I used to believe in forever
But forever is too good to be true
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far

I don't know what else to do
Except to try and dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming too
Wherever you are, Wherever you are...

Daddy please don't look so sad,
Mommy please don't cry,
Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus and
He sings me lullabies.
Please try not to question God,
Don't think he is unkind.
Don't think He sent me to you,
And then changed His mind.
You see I am a Special Child,
And am needed up above,
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
The product of your love.
I'll always be there with you,
And watch the sky at night,
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you find a gentle breeze,
From a gentle wind that blows,
That's me, I'll be planting a kiss on your nose.
When you see a child playing,
And your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there, giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mommy don't you cry. I'm in the arms of Jesus, and He sings me lullabies.
~Author Unknown~[/size]

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Thoughts on Becoming a Mom~

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

Author Unknown

"My Mom is a Survivor"

My Mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all others are in bed.

I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.

But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.

My mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mom
through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her...
or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
no matter what she feels.
My surviving mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.

By Kaye Des'Ormeaux
October 15, 1998

Dedicated to the mothers who have lost a child & have somehow survived.

“What we have once enjoyed and deeply loved we can never lose, for all that we love deeply becomes a part of us,”
-Helen Keller



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These are the lyrics to a song that meant a lot to me during my loss. I was praying to God because I was afraid I was going to fall apart. Then I turned on the radio and heard this song:

Fall
by Clay Walker
Hold up there you go again
Puttin on that smile again
Even though I know you've had a bad day
Doin this and doin that
Always puttin' yourself last
A whole lotta give and not enough take

But you can only be strong so long before you break

So fall go on and fall apart

Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear every worry every tear
Im right here
Baby fall

Forget about the world tonight
All that's wrong and all that's right
Lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away

And if you wanna let go baby its okay

Who could have known the exquisite difference
Your brief life would make upon mine?
Who could have known a tiny baby
Would show me the beauty of a sunrise,
Or the wonder of a rainbow or the pain of a tear?
Who could have known an innocent child
Would take away my fear of death,
And point me in the direction of heaven?
Who could have known that you would succeed
Where so many others have failed?
(Dana Gensler, 1990)

I think these lyrics sum up how I feel right now. It's an excerpt from a song by Chris de Burgh.

I wonder if you ever knew
How much you were loved
And in the darkness of a lonely room
Were you empty inside?
As you fade away it's like a light
Has gone from the world
But i am sure that there is a place
Where it will burn on forever
And as we say goodbye i can hardly see
For the tears in my eyes
You are shining like a million suns
And there's a new star up in heaven tonight.