I haven't been here in a long time... but am hoping for some support/empathy/advice.
I became pregnant for the first time ever at age 35 in Oct 08, and had a miscarriage with D&C at 10/11 weeks on Dec 19, 2008. My EDD was July 13, which happens to also be my father's bday - he passed away two years ago on June 12.
So, had my baby survived, I would be about 7/8 months pregnant right now... and I feel like everywhere I look are women with perfect round baby bellies. It hurts to see them. To see the happiness in their faces, see them shopping for baby gear.
I don't know if I will ever have another 'chance' to be pregnant again...
I don't know how to handle this. I'm sure at this point everyone in my 'real' life thinks I should be 'over' this and have moved on long ago. But I think I will always have the "should be x months preg now... should have a x month old right now... ' and I don't know how to make it better.
I'm single... had broken up with the father of the baby before I found out I was pregnant... and truly, if I were to get pregnant again I would like to be married... but I keep wondering if I should explore conceiving again now... on my own.... I know that I want a baby, children..... what if I never meet the 'one' and get married? I'm already 35.
Thanks for reading.