I've been lurking around this board for a while, long before I ever became a real member. To date I have four angels in Heaven. The first three were natural losses all by 9 weeks, my last was at the beginning of his second trimester... and we were informed he was a boy after he in for genetics. Everything turned up fine and we will never know why his heart stopped beating. The week I lost Phillip I was also moving to Germany, my husband is in the Army and it's our job. I had an emergency D&C to be able to fly, and I never felt worse. The plane ride was probably the worst pain I've ever gone through and the next few weeks and months didn't help. I hate Germany and I hate the town we're in. I don't have a real connection with anyone like I did back at our last base. Well, now I'm here, almost exactly a year later and I'm pregnant again. I remember when my mom called to tell me my cousin was pregnant (about 2 weeks before we found out), I threw the phone, and cried for days. That was right before Christmas of 07, I lost our son in March of 07. I never really got over it or accepted it. Now I'm pregnant again and I know I have to stay positive for this one, and so far everything is going fine, I've been checked up on a lot, and I've seen that this one should be okay... but I just can't get over my last. We weren't trying when I got pregnant and my husband deploys in less than 60 days for 15 more months in wonderful Iraq, so the end of this pregnancy I'm going through a lone.
For the people who have had a loss and got pregnant again, how did you still get over your last loss? I don't worry too much about every little bump or pain, but I keep thinking about Phillip more than I think about this one.
Thanks for any advice. I feel bad coming on this board because I am pg, but I knew you guys would be the ones who would understand.