Why don't people bring up my daughter? No one mentions her name? It's like she never really existed. I saw the heart beat. I delivered her at 16 weeks. I held her in my arms. I have pictures of her small body. But family and friends act as if she was never here. It hurts. It makes me want her more because no one acknowledges her presence. I have cried a lot today over her loss again. I am sad and missing her but I am also sick so that probably has a lot to do with my depressive mood. Fever and migraine.
Has anyone just wanted to scream at people I have a daughter but she died and is in heaven? I wonder sometimes what people would say or do if I just yelled it out. I am suppose to be moving into the acceptance phase but how can I accept her death when the people around me haven't even accepted that I had a daughter and lost her. People her name is Rebecca. I would love for you to use her name, not just the baby. Maybe I am not at the acceptance phase maybe I am at the anger stage, the piss off stage, the this isn't fair and how come it happened to me phase.
This isn't how life is suppose to be for any of us. No one deserves to lose a baby or to experience a loss of such sadness.
Thanks for letting me vent. I hope I didn't bring anyone down.