Today we had to go to the funeral home. We are having Gabi creamated. It was a mercifully short visit - we only had to sign some papers. The funeral home is very caring. They waived a lot of fees because she was just a baby. They also donated a small urn - it's pink with angels on it. I think she would have thought it was pretty.
It's just hard when it hits. Sometimes I feel ok, and then sometimes I am overcome. Having to go to a funeral home for my baby girl was devastating.
I am so sorry for your loss. I have followed Gabi's story since she was born. She was such a fighter. I can't imagine or have any words to help you but please know I am thinking and praying for your family. Gabi touch so many people in her short life.
Unfortunately I remember the trip to the funeral home all too clearly. We too had our child cremated.
I am so very sorry for your loss and wish that I had some magical words to take the pain away. Unfortunately those don't exist. Again, I am only a pm away if you need someone to cry to or to scream at to get things off of your chest.
We also had child cremated. Picking up his ashes and picking out an urn was a very difficult process.
I just want to warn you at how small the ashes that you get back will be. Our son was 5lbs 2oz and the amount of ashes could have fit into a matchbox. (The small size). We were told this was pretty typical.