So I was just sitting here earlier checking my gas bill of all things and for some reason it hit me. I realized that I didnt know how far along I would have been. So rather than letting it go I had to look at the calender. I would have been 18w 2d. It hit me that I would have been finding out the gender soon and I would have been showing and it just tore me up. It has been 8 weeks since my d and c and still no af. I started Provera 4 days ago after struggling for almost two weeks with the decision of whether or not to take it. It just sucks that not only do I not have my child, but my body isnt doing what it is supposed to do to allow me to get pregnant again. I babysit and I just started watching Abby a beautiful 8 week old baby(she was born the day of my d and c) and it sucks so bad to look at her and want a baby so bad. My 21 month old dd loves her and keeps saying how she wants a baby. I just want to scream! Ok Im done venting just needed to get it out somewhere for someone to hear.