Today was to be the day that i was to have delivered my lil angel. I am going through a range of emotions. This lil angel was the third baby we lost and we thought for sure he would make it to be held in our arms. Sadly he didnt make it as i had an ectopic pregnancy. Its just so hard making it through the days of when our lil ones were due. I go from being so mad to just being a total wreck. We had thought we were ready to try again, sicne i had lost the baby in march, but now i just dont know. In the back of my mind i think this next one will make it, but then i think i am going to be right where i am again today. It tears my heart into pieces when i sit here and think of what he would look like, if he would have my husbands eyes or my smile. But i do want to think of everyone who makes all of us women on this board get through another day. Some of us wouldbe lost without all the women on this board, i know i would.