In October, after a failed IVF cycle and a ton of prayers....We got our second bfp. Less than two weeks later we found out we were expecting not one miracle, but two miracles. We feel so blessed.
Unfortunately at my 8 week f/u u/s on 11-16, DH and I witnessed the last few beats of my Baby 'B's heart beat. We were sent to the hospital and received confirmation that there was no longer any cardiac activity. We are so heartbroken. I am in shock that I now have 2 angel babies - only months apart. I relived all the feeling of - what could I have done differently? Did I do something to harm the baby? Will I do the same to harm Baby 'A'? I know these thoughts are irrational, but I am having trouble grasping how/why this has happened. I am slowly coming more at peace with this, but with the holidays approaching, I know it will be difficult.
Thanks for reading and as always, thanks for your support.
I am so sorry for your losses. I just wanted to tell you that there is a woman I am in my DSS PTO(PTA in some states) that I have talked to a lot since my loss. Her oldest daughter is now 14 or 15 and she was a twin. The other twin was lost in the first trimester. Savannah (the daughter) is a beautiful smart young woman. I only wanted to tell you this because although I can't imagine what you must feel like and I know you want all of your babies, I wanted you to know that this doesn't mean that anything will happen to your Baby A. I'm sure you do know that, but I also know how worried I would be too. Please take care of yourself, come here whenever you need to.
oh honey i'm SO sorry to hear your news. I"m so sad for your losses...... I read a book after my loss that was about loss after infertility esp fertility treatments. I HAve no idea what the title was but i found it at my library. It acknowledged how loosing such a pregnancy has different/more emotions than for some. NOt to take away from anyone's pain but it was really interesting and helpful to me. (My loss was not after a treatment but after a year of ttc)
PLease tell your dh how sorry i am for his loss too.
I'm so sorry to hear that. My first loss was in June, as well, and I just lost my second in October. It's really rough having losses that close together, and even worse when you see the baby's heartbeat (as we did with our second - the day before it died).
I'm so glad that you do have your baby A who is still hanging on. I hope everything goes well with that one! We're all here for you.
I am so very sorry that you have to go through that kind of pain again. I know that it is so easy to say, but please try not to worry yourself (literally) sick. That precious baby needs your love and comfort. You are doing things right. You cannot help but do so. You are a mother and that is what we do. I wish you peace, strength, and serenity.