Yesterday was the hardest day I've had in a while. It was Haley's first birthday. Instead of laughing and playing with her I had to visit her grave. It was so hard. And the day did not pass without dh and I fighting. I hate feeling this way. It is so hard. She passed of SIDS. I hate that cruel evil.
Last edited by Michelle; 08-18-2007 at 06:44 AM.
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I'm sorry for your loss. My daughter would have been 5 on July 21. It never gets easier or less painful, but each year on her birthday I do something in honor of my sweet baby girl. This year I planted a flower garden around her headstone and I did the exact same garden at my home... I have to believe that God has a plan even when it seems cruel.
I am so sorry that she is not with you. I hope that you find some peace. I am sorry that you had a fight with your husband too. Men don't get taught to express their pain and emotions like women do and anger seems to be the outlet usually chosen. I am sure that by fighting with you it gave something else to focus on instead of his own grief.
I am worried about how I am going to deal with tomorrow as that is the day that my precious angel was supposed to be born. It will be three weeks exactly since he was born sleeping and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier.
I am going off on a tangent. I just wanted to say that I am praying for you and your family. Your precious little girl loves you just as much as you love her.