I am very saddened by the loss of my last pregnancy. This was the 5th miscarriage and would have been my 4th child. I am grateful for what I do have but the loss of a pregnancy for anyone is never easy. I hope it is ok to talk about this here, I feel like I need to talk and feel unsure where to.
I had gone to the Dr. on Monday hoping to see my baby at 10 weeks moving around on the ultrasound, but there was no movement nor a heartbeat. I was sent to the radiology dept of the adjoining hospital and the ultrasound there showed the same, no more baby. I had to go back to my Dr's office and from there he explained to me about doing a laminaria on Wednesday and giving me cytotec(sp?) to help my body begin the process since it wasn't. I was scared but ok with this since this Dr is someone I feel confident with. So Wednesday I had the procedure done and by yesterday morning the Dr. did a D&C to make sure my uterus was all clear. It went well he said & I go back next week for a check up. I think then I will ask him to put me on something to get my periods to come regularly again. I can't take the pill though cause it causes problems for me. I just want to feel like a real woman again and not like I failed, even though I know I did what I could to stay healthy.
Hugs. I am so very sorry for all of your losses. I too have other children, but it doesn't make that loss any less sad. I have been where you were twice, meaning I went to that first appt full of hope and anticipation, only to have it squelched, and it hurts horribly. Please feel free to vent here any time, it has been a lifesaver to me.