As most of you all know (from my constant whining posts) I have been having quite a hard time recently, just been one thing after another. I posted a couple of days ago about my dh not being very supportive etc and not being sure about ttc again. Well, yesterday he text to ask if I wanted to go to lunch (ds & dd were both at school) so he came to pick me up and we had a good chat about everything, and he said he is worried about me and has not been sure how to handle me and he does not want me to go through all of this again. He said that he does still want to ttc again as soon as I have had first af after d & c. Then he bought me a new car!!!! Wow, he really must feel bad!!! Not that I am complaining! I have wanted this gorgeous convertible for ages and yesterday he took me to the garage before lunch and bought it for me! Its only a year old, and I get it next week! Then this morning I woke up feeling much more positive, and managed to get out of bed alot easier than I have been doing, and I went to the loo and there to greet me was my first AF!!! Its been almost 5 weeks since d & c, and I was soooo relieved to see her. (even though its quite painful) This spurred me on to really get it together today, and I have changed bedding, done loads of washing, cleaned out my ds and dd bedrooms whilst they are at school. My dd is having friend for dinner tonight so went and got them all some ice cream etc as a treat. I hope that this is all a step in the right direction, I know you get up and down days and im certain that I am not off the rollercoaster ride just yet, but it feels so good to have even one day where I dont feel quite so wretched. I wanted to share this with all of you ladies, as when the days have been really dark for me, you have all been responsible for pulling me through. I hope we all get good days much more frequently from now on, we all deserve them.