Tuesday I m/c at 12wks. I was in the hospital for a day do to hemorrhaging. It was a bloody nightmare. I was put in the O.B., an incubator and crib were in my room. I've been home for two days and I can't seem to move. I haven't even taken a shower. I still have dried blood behind my knees and between my toes. My DH is tore up about the baby but doesn't have time to grieve because he's taking care of me. I sent my mother out to get cigarettes. A habit I gave some time ago. I'm now smoking 2 pks a day.
This was my first pregnancy. I was told I was infertile, and thought at the age of 33 and DH at 41, we was given a miracle. I have two beautiful step-children and 5 month old granddaughter. I use to think that was enough, and was very happy.
How long does it take to be happy again?