Hey everyone. I haven't been here in a few months. I've been doing really well with my grief and I didn't want to jinx myself. I feel bad for not offering support for so long and then, out of no where, asking for support myself. But, I know you will all understand. I was due next month. At Christmas a friend called me to see how I was doing, to offer support, but what she really wanted was details about the signs of a M/C. I found this out after pouring my heart out to her about loosing my baby. She told me right after that she was two months pregnant. I felt betrayed. She dug for info, under the pretnese of supporting me. She didn't need to hear all that either (talk about stressing yourself out). Well, she called me again last night to tell me how her pregnancy is going. I'm torn between being glad she's doing fine to being p'd right of. She didn't want this baby. She made a point of telling me over the holidays that she woudl never get an abortion even though it's a realy inconvienient time to have a child. I mean, can you rub it in my face anymore? I know, regardless of what it looks like, that she isn't meaning to hurt me. She's just stupid like that and I know that if I tell her she's hurting me, I'll have to listen to months of apologies. So, I can't be bothered. I just need to vent. She's already talking about lfying out to visit me with the baby. Great. She's asking all sorts of questions (are you going to try again-how long has it been since you m/c now, do you still think about it all the time, etc). It just brought it all back and now, I'm a mess again. I'm not crying everyday or anything, but it creeps into my head at unexpected times and greif just sorta sneaks up on me. It's been a while since that happened and now, it's happening again and I'm really frustrated. Thanks for listening.