I had therapy again today and she gave me some things to think about and try to answer. Why am I hanging on to anxiety? What is the payoff? If I let go of the anxiety am I letting go of Rebecca. Am I afraid to move on because in doing so I have left my daughter behind?
I am not sure what any of the answers are but I hope I figure them out soon.
I am less anxious right now but I always have that fear in the back of my head about it returning or getting worse.