Thinking of my little one...(m.c. ment)

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Thinking of my little one...(m.c. ment)

I had my second m/c back in July...it was a complete and utter shock when we went in @ 13 weeks and no heartbeat, prior to that there was no indication that anything was amiss. I had a D/C a couple days later and of course we were heartbroken.

I got a lot of support from this board at the time and I appreciate that very much.

Now the due date is getting nearer and it's all coming back. I think I'm just posting this to acknowledge the loss and remember my little one. I don't want to let myself go back to feeling so sad, but then I feel guilty if I don't allow myself to think about it...not sure if that makes any sense.

I guess in an odd way I still can't believe it happened, the whole thing just seems surreal in a way. When I think about it and I think OMG, I could be having a baby in a few weeks, it just crushes me.

Thanks for letting me post this. I knew you ladies would understand.

-Kit

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Kit
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When would your EDD have been?

It totally does make sense - what you said about not allowing yourself to think about it and then feeling sad. The thing is though, you can't let yourself think about it all the time. A person can't function daily if they allow themselves to fee that sad all the time. It's completely normal to force yourself not to feel that way. :comfort:

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Thanks ladies. My EDD would've been late January/Early February. I had it in my head it was going to happen on my mom's birthday Jan 21st. She shares a birthday with her brother so I thought that would've been neat.

Thanks for listening

-Kit

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:bighug: Just *HUGS* :bighug:

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makes complete sense....not odd at all :bighug:...Although your little ones life was short here on earth...that was your baby, and forever will be....You will always remember him/her....

I will be thinking of you on Jan 21st...remembering your lo... :bighug:

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Kit I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I think all the things you're feeling are completely normal. Sad ((HUGS))

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Again, I am so very sorry for you loss. The due date is a very hard day to deal with. If you can, take the day off and bury your head under the covers. I pray you find some peace.

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The due date is very hard, for my due date I kept very busy, but it hit me the day after and I fell apart. KIT here. We are here for you.

(((HUGS)))
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Big hugs Kit.

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Hey Kit,

I completely understand about not wanting to think about it but also wanting to. My due date isn't until March and I'm already thinking about it. I can understand what you're feeling. I hope you are able to find some peace.

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BIG HUGS!:openarms: I completely understand!

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Oh Kit, I'm so sorry.

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~Amber