I had my second m/c back in July...it was a complete and utter shock when we went in @ 13 weeks and no heartbeat, prior to that there was no indication that anything was amiss. I had a D/C a couple days later and of course we were heartbroken.
I got a lot of support from this board at the time and I appreciate that very much.
Now the due date is getting nearer and it's all coming back. I think I'm just posting this to acknowledge the loss and remember my little one. I don't want to let myself go back to feeling so sad, but then I feel guilty if I don't allow myself to think about it...not sure if that makes any sense.
I guess in an odd way I still can't believe it happened, the whole thing just seems surreal in a way. When I think about it and I think OMG, I could be having a baby in a few weeks, it just crushes me.
Thanks for letting me post this. I knew you ladies would understand.
It totally does make sense - what you said about not allowing yourself to think about it and then feeling sad. The thing is though, you can't let yourself think about it all the time. A person can't function daily if they allow themselves to fee that sad all the time. It's completely normal to force yourself not to feel that way.
Mum to... Zane. Delivered by c-section at 41 weeks. Died due to Vasa Praevia. 16-17 October 2006 Ada. Delivered by c-section at 25 weeks. Her heart just stopped. No explanation. 7 September 2007
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Thanks ladies. My EDD would've been late January/Early February. I had it in my head it was going to happen on my mom's birthday Jan 21st. She shares a birthday with her brother so I thought that would've been neat.