three months today, still stuck
I'm new here, and wish I had never found my way here.
Stuck about sums it up.Three months ago today I had to terminate my pregnancy of seven weeks, my baby had implated 4mm outside of my fallopian tube and my obgyn gave me a 30% chance to carry to term, and 20% chance that I would burst my tube and bleed to death. Kinda crappy odds. As much as I hated to give up on my baby, I didn't want to bleed to death either. This wasn't a planned pregnancy and it scared me, I'm in no position to have a child, I'm a medical student. We push ourselves, get no sleep, forget to eat, and are under a mountain of stress. But I would have changed that for my baby, I would have tried. But it wasn't to be. Now the father and I have broken up and he is not speaking to me at all. He doesn't acknowledge my existance. No support coming from there. And my friends tell me that it's been three months, I should be over this. Is three months a long time? And if it is, how to I move on? I function, I go to school, I can even put on an "I'm okay" face and pretend. But inside I still feel empty. And I'm stuck, I don't know how to move. Help?