(((((((HUGS)))))) I'm sorry you were sick! I hope that you are feeling better now?
Doing something near the water does sound nice. Somehow being outdoors - especially enjoying the sun seems like a bit of a gift while I'm trying to deal with things associated with loss.
Your note about it being surreal touched me. If I allow myself to stop and think back to how old my earlier (losses) children would be now with me -- *sigh* that thought is difficult to process. *Surreal* is close to summing that up.
I am glad that you were able to talk with his dad. I know that is part of your healing process for both of you.
Most of all for you, I am so grateful that you are at a "place" where coping goes a *bit* easier.