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Today starts 14 yrs officially.

Zachary passed away tonight 14 yrs ago. I didn't find out till the 18th and delivered him on the 19th.

I just want those moments back of being able to hold him and see his face and curly hair.

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Hugs and prayers!

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Hugs. We may heal some, but never forget our angels.

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Sending many hugs to you.

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{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} I'm sorry that I missed responding to this sooner. I know that these specific dates and time of year are painful for you.

Were you able to do something this year to honor his memory (and help you as well?) I know in the past that you have offered so many wonderful ideas/suggestions for these special "anniversary" dates for others... but sometimes it can be difficult to apply them to your own situation.

Know you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I know that those fall far short of easing your pain. I only wish that I could offer you more.

Take care,
~Missy

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Thanks Ladies.

Missy, Thank You for that. You don't know how much it's appreciated.

I really didn't do anything to honor him over the wkend. I was pretty much holed up in bed sick all wkend long. We'll do something near the water this coming wkend...the weather is supposed to be beautiful. We def need to do a ballon release. It's just so surreal to me that it's been 14 yrs. I look back and wonder where all those yrs went. I do know i handled it better then previous yrs. I did talk to his father (not DH) for over an hr on the night of the 18th. I know it helped us both.

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Hugs.

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(((((((HUGS)))))) I'm sorry you were sick! I hope that you are feeling better now?

Doing something near the water does sound nice. Somehow being outdoors - especially enjoying the sun seems like a bit of a gift while I'm trying to deal with things associated with loss.

Your note about it being surreal touched me. If I allow myself to stop and think back to how old my earlier (losses) children would be now with me -- *sigh* that thought is difficult to process. *Surreal* is close to summing that up.

I am glad that you were able to talk with his dad. I know that is part of your healing process for both of you. :bighug:
Most of all for you, I am so grateful that you are at a "place" where coping goes a *bit* easier.

You remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Enjoy a beautiful weekend!

~Missy