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Sapphire Sunsets's picture
Joined: 05/19/02
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Tonight is the 13th annvi of Zachary's passing away. I don't think i'll ever forget where we were or what we were doing. Saturday is the annvi of his delivery.

I have so much more i want to say but i'm scared that once the tears start they won't stop.

I just miss my little guy and will always wonder how his life would have been.

cdokter's picture
Joined: 02/18/08
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I lost my baby two weeks ago today and I know how you feel. I already dread the date they were due or the day they would have been a teenager. I'm sorry for your loss.

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:bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:

It's okay to let those tears roll...We are here for you..


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Joined: 10/11/05
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Hang in there sweetie! You and Zachary are in my thoughts on this day.


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Joined: 11/14/06
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I am sorry for your loss. You are strong.

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I'm so sorry for your loss of Zachary. I'm glad you have written about his anniversary here, allowing us to give you lots of understanding, love and support.

Wish I could reach through the computer and give you a great, big, squeezy hug.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.


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:bigarmhug: Wish they were real ones. :comfort:

Sapphire Sunsets's picture
Joined: 05/19/02
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Thanks Ladies.

I still haven't really cried yet. I know it's going to hit me sometime today or tomorrow...

I've been holding his angel statue from his memorial shelf. I started looking through the medical papers lastnight and DH (not his bio-dad) wanted to shut off the light and go to sleep. He knows this is hard on me but he hates seeing me upset. I'm probably gonna go for a drive alone later and be near the water, that gives me so much peace.

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Joined: 01/31/08
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I really hope you got the time you needed to remember your little one. I am so sorry for your loss. Please know we are always here.

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I'm sorry for your loss and hope you can find some peaece.

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Sending hugs your way~

:bighug: :bighug: :bighug:


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I'm thinking of you and your son, Zachary, today. :bighug:


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Saturday was hard. I had to work a 8 hr shift. It seemed like everything the customers said someone related to Zachary. I almost had a break down after someone was looking for heart shaped (my uterus is heart shaped and i found out at his first u/s) diamond earrings. I had to just stand there at the counter and keep myself from crying when all i really wanted to do was run out of the store.

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Sending hugs.

Joined: 03/16/15
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I'm sorry Saturday was so hard for you, and I feel for you. You were very strong to go into to work, "functioning" so bravely.

I am grieving your Zach too. I'm sure many of us here are.

We're here for you. We understand.