I a surprise pregnancy back in November 06, it ended in a ruptured ectopic. I had about a week from when I knew I was pregnant til the end. I had a very difficult time with that, especially bcause I loss a tube. I can remember one day a few days later just crying my eyes out. I just couldn't stop crying. Eventually I moved on, I was planning a wedding, and not many people knew, so it was an easier proces.
After getting married, we decided we'd officially try. It took about 8 months, but we managed to get our BFP on April 28th. Once again I had that uneasy feeling, that things weren't right, but I didn't have any bleeding. I had pregnancy symptoms more so than the last time, so I had hope. My HCG numbers doubled well, so my doctor sent me for an early ultrasound.
They told me they couldn't see everything, and that I had a retroverted uterus that also tips to the left. The tech said it could either be too early or this pregnancy wasn't viable. I was so upset. I was told to come back in a week. I still had sore boobs, but a lot of my pregnancy symptoms had subsided. I never got morning sickness, and food didn't sound as bad.
I had my D&C today as the last ultrasound revealed that the baby stopped growing and didn't have a heartbeat. I find that I'm at peace with the situation, even though I know it's going to be hard. Most of our friends and family members knew. I'm worried at how long it will take us to get pregnant the next time, if at all, much less if it'll happen again. I can't help, but feeling like this will be a theme for me. All I want is one healthy child, I cannot understand why I have to experience so much pain.