Sorry I was MIA again. But I got sick and lost Patrick and Abby on Thursday Oct. 30th. I became septic and ended up in the ICU. After many new antibiotics and 2 blood transfusions.I was back to my regular room. I will be home soon. DH and I are broken. We take comfort in knowing we did everything possible to save the babies. We are not sure what to do yet. I need to take a break form the boards for awhile. But I'm sure I will be posting here again. Some day I will share my birth story but its really long and I'm still very weak. Thank you for all your support.