I went to my cousins daughters 1st b-day yesterday and now today I am crying all the time. I wish I could just stop crying and be normal again. It has been 3 months since my miscarriage and I know that I can not bring her back. I just want the pain to go away and to feel less lonely. Nobody understands the pain and heartbreak that a mother feels when lossing their baby.
I just want to scream "I lost my daughter" at the top of my lungs. How could this happen? Where was "God"? I needed and wanted her so much. I just want to feel whole again. I want to be "normal and happy" not sad.
I don't know what you guys do to cope but I am hoping venting online will help me, journaling hasn't.
Thanks for listening.