Well I went to see my best friends baby, and if anything I think it actually helped me. He was so beautiful, tiny and perfect. My friend was fantastic, as soon as I walked in she passed him straight to me, and I sat cuddling him for an hour. My friend is like family, so it was like welcoming a new little family member. I did not cry at all, in fact I did not even feel like I needed too. Of course my heart ached for my little one, but whilst I was holding him I just said a silent prayer that one day soon we will all hold babies of our own in our arms. We so deserve that and I know it will happen.
Thank you all for being so supportive