Well I went to see my best friends baby, and if anything I think it actually helped me. He was so beautiful, tiny and perfect. My friend was fantastic, as soon as I walked in she passed him straight to me, and I sat cuddling him for an hour. My friend is like family, so it was like welcoming a new little family member. I did not cry at all, in fact I did not even feel like I needed too. Of course my heart ached for my little one, but whilst I was holding him I just said a silent prayer that one day soon we will all hold babies of our own in our arms. We so deserve that and I know it will happen.
I am glad you did it and it was good. I did it too, this past weekend. I was dreading it, but had the plane tickets already, so there was no backing out. It was so good, and I was so glad I went. My BFF understood my pain, and let me hold her baby as much as I wanted. I just sat one night in the nursery alone, rocking her and crying. It felt therapeutic. Plus it helped me get over the I can't see newborns without crying thing. I am glad you felt the same way.
I have gotten over that first hurdle too. My sister had her baby 3 weeks before my little Zara died. It took me some time but now I see him frequently and I do not dread it like I did at the beginning. There is something so sweet about holding a baby.
My sister has been here since last Friday because their heat is broken and it is taking time to get the part in to fix it. It has been hard hearing her baby crying at night and me waking up to that. I will be happy not to have to deal with that soon.