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    ETA: Ada weighed 700 grams (1.5lbs) and was 32 cm (12.5 inches) in length. I was 25 weeks along.

    We’re back from the hospital at last and very much glad to be home. First of all thank you all so much for your wonderful words of support. They mean so much, i swear they really do.


    I know that you will be curious to know what happened, although i can’t tell you much because i’m not so sure myself. The last time i remember Ada kicking me was sometime in the night on Thursday. I dont remember clearly, but seem to recall waking up a couple of times and getting booted, as you do. In the morning i had a standard midwife appointment booked and i got up as normal and went. She asked me as she always does if baby was moving well and i replied that she was, although i hadnt felt her that morning, but i wasnt worried because that’s normal. She’s not a morning person, like her mum, i said. The midwife laid me down and tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler and couldnt. I still wasnt too worried because i know that we’ve had problems trying to find it in the past and she advised the hospital that i would be going through for a scan to check all was well. I just forced myself not to think about it too much, even though it was all i could think about! At the hospital they brought in the ultrasound machine and checked me over. After a very long couple of minutes the technician said “I’m sorry but i cannot find this baby’s heartbeat” incredibly i said “You’re kidding?” like i half expected her to laugh and say “Yeah, funny arent i!” God how much do i wish she was that much of an evil bastard. I think i just said “Not again!” and collapsed onto Mum who’d gone with me. Mum asked if there was anything they could do to check and they told us no, they were certain.


    After a consultation with the doctor who would be performing the c-section i was worried because she told me that usually they have to do a vertical incision and after my research after the last c-section, i knew this wasnt good news. Then she went on to explain that the surgery was going to be extra complicated because the placenta was so low and would make it difficult to stem to bleeding. She told me that if they couldnt stop the bleeding they may have to perform a histerectomy to stop it and save me. I have never had a real fear for my own life until then. I know they have to cover all options, but i was terrified. Luckily the surgery went well. I have a neat horizontal incision and still have my womb in place. Mum said that the doctor was so genuinely pleased that she’d managed to do it that way. I am so grateful to her for her skill. I owe her so much!


    When i woke up i was in the same room i woke up in after Zane was born. Talk about deja vous! We saw Ada pretty soon after i woke up and came around and i was pretty much in a morphine daze, but i remember thinking she was beautiful. I know that she was small and red and everything, but she just looked like a miniature baby. That sounds completely silly because she was a miniature baby, but i know what i mean. Unfortunately i had the benefit of learning from experience and i made sure i took far more photographs that what i took of Zane. Even so, i dont have enough. As if any amount of photographs are a fair substitute for a daughters life.
    We picked the name Ada just last week because it means ‘Happy’ and this was significant to us. She was our happiness at a time that was so unbearably bleak and hopeless.


    I have included a picture of her, but if looking at a picture of a stillborn baby might upset you please dont scroll down.

















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    Oh Sarah! Ada is just beautiful. I love the pics of her tiny hands and feet. I am glad you were able to get lots of pictures (though you are right, it could never be enough). She is a beautiful little baby. I am so sorry that you didn't get more time with her (like a lifetime), and I am glad the doc did such a good job, and your womb is still in tact. I am so glad your mom could be there with you for such terrible news as well. Hugs and prayers!

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    I am so sorry, she was perfect and beautiful! The name Ada is perfect. I'm so sorry Sara... *hugs*

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    Oh Sarah,

    There are no words. All I can say is that I am so very sorry for your loss. You have been in my constant thoughts and prayers. You are so strong that I am completely in awe of you!

    Please take care of yourself.

    Much love,
    Jaime

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    Sarah, Im so sorry you have to go through this again.
    Ada is beautiful.

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    Sarah-I am so, so sorry you are going through this again. You are so strong and I truly admire you. Ada is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing the pictures!

    Amy

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    She's gorgeous Sarah! What a little princess. "hugs and kisses to all"

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    Sarah,

    Ada is very beautiful. I'm glad you were able to spend time with her.

    Sending lots of hugs your way.

    Karen

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    Thank you so much for sharing with us your beautiful baby girl, you, Scott, Ada & Zane will remain in my prayers.

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    Sarah, your daughter is absolutely gorgeous. I am so sorry for the loss of both of your beautiful babies. May you find strength during this dark time.

    Thinking of you and Scott, and your babies.

    Karen

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