I've been doing so well. I've been positive. I have had moments of actual happiness. I've been taking a remedy from the naturopath which is really working for me and I just want to cry right now.
I have had a migrane since yesterday morning. I cried myself to sleep last night. I am exhausted. I have to stay at work because I need to be at a meeting at 2. But I just want to go home to bed.
Child and baby ment
My son has gymnastics tonight and there is a newborn baby girl there. I am dreading going. I'm not sure I can handle it today. On the other hand I don't want to disappoint my little boy by telling him he can't go to gymnastics.
Sunday is 6 months since I delivered Lily. I wonder if that is what is bringing back these feelings? Why is mourning so draining? I have been feeling so good and now I feel like crap.