You know how when you find out your pg and you go and register on baby websites and they send you those emails that say "you're x weeks pg! here's what's going on with you!"
Well, I did that, and I keep getting the emails (I'd be 27 weeks right now) and I can't make myself stop them from sending them. It makes me sad, but at the same time I simply can't bring myself to click the link and stop them.
I feel like a sadist (or is ist masochistic that causes self pain?).
I understand what you mean. It was really hard to stop those emails. I think its hard to stop something that once made you feel so good. I loved getting those emails. It just meant I was that much closer, and when I had to stop them it was just depressing.
I still get emails from target regarding baby sales , and it just breaks my heart. If you can't stop the emails yet, don't beat yourself up. You will know when the time is right.
Hugs. It took me a while to stop them when dd passed. I was getting your baby is x weeks old. Here is what is going on with her. I finally had to stop it all. I think its a part of your grieving. Take your time.